Life of Buck

Monday, June 27, 2005

I'm hot. And sweaty. I wonder why. Could it be due to the fact that I just played an hour and a half of tennis in a stuffy gym? Course not.

So I went to Christine's choir concert last night and it was magnetudes of fun. Jon, manda, and satya, came and so I sat in the back with them, for I had already chosen my spot away from most of the cluster of people. And thankfully they were late so I could see them. Otherwise I was going to scan the rows for jon's tallness throughout the play. And later I saw christine which was enjoyable. But then I found out it was 10 and I said to myself, holy spam i gotta get out of here! Cause I told my dad 9. But apparently he dozed of in the car so it was ok. But I was saddened I couldn't show manda 'round that humongo church because I know she likes exploring, and it's a fantabulous place to search around. Ohh that'd make great hide and seek... Anyways today I talked to josh robertson for the first time ever in knowing him. I know alot about him, and have been around ihm alot with other people, but never said anything to him. And then when I was walking in his direction to sit down he was all, "You were at the play yesterday!" I blinked in confusion. The words play filtered through my mind and I thought...Christine's choir concert? So I asked where it was and he said some lutheran church. And then I figured it out and said, "Aha! The play!" So apparently he knows I exist because he saw me at the "play" and it's funny that I didn't see him because I'm usually observant of others. Oh, I must have been distracted by my friend's hott faces.

You know what I have decided? I have interesting timing. LAst wednesday I was saddened cause I wasn't invited to go irish dancing. Ezra had picked me up from church but then instead of going the normal way which you can see certain people's houses.. we went to mcdonals. So he could rent a movi.e O.o And that took a while. And then he had to drop off food to Brenda's house. She lives two blocks down from the robertsons. So I casually glanced down the blocks and guess what. It was everyone getting out of their car, including the hogan's at that moment. And it's weird because if we had not gone i wouldn't have seen them..and yea. And then yesterday I was bored so i decided to go for a bike ride. And when I was riding down magnolia I looked at the busy street and right then I saw a big red van that looked quite similar to Manda's. But I thought it couldn't be. But then two cars behind was her dad's banana car! And if I had left 1 minute later I never would have seen that. Or if I had gone a different way...So Yea. That's weird.

This morning I woke up and I had my arm stuffed under my pillow. I realized that I had been sleeping on it and it was numb feeling. But then I pulled it out and I could not for the life of me move any part of it, except the shoulder which i was moving it with. And it's very very scary when you're dragging your own limp arm over your legs. And so I sort of shook it with my other hand and it was so dead. Finally it started ressurecting. But it was peculiar cause I couldn't even move my fingers.

So that is my weird day.

Now I have to go eat and go to art, adn then take my placement test for the gay school which I will suffer at because I SUCK at math. Then go to prayer meeting.

farewell random people.

::quoth anna:: at 1:05 PM

Sunday, June 26, 2005

"when i was younger, thought i had my own key, i knew exactly what i wanted to be, now i'm sure you've boarded up every door."

Well I've been super busy this week, and hardly been at home. thursday i went to hebrew and then me and my dad went grocery shopping. i biked to lake phalen church after i arrived home so i could catch the end of their vbs. interesting. then i stayed with katie, steph and cerise and helped them plan the obstacle course for the next day. kate biked me home and i took a shower and ate a couple things. then thye picked me up again and we got pizza and went to watch movies on the big screen with the projecter at the church. we watched conspiracy theory and timeline. i cried at the end of conspiracy theory, but not because it was sad, but because it reminded me of somehting. i bet you can guess.

slept over at the lange's. friday morning i was dropped off at my home and then i went with shirley, my dad's friend to go make straberry jam. we had to go to this place in white bear lake to pick them, and then we went to her home and made it. i can make my upper lip twitch in a mean way. we had taco salad for lunch which was delicious, and we also made straberry pie. mm..

when i got home i made ezra drive me to satya's, and there i ate fantabulous food like a braut, lots of potato salad, pickles, and rhubard crisp. yum...

manda and peter came a while after me and then we all drove to the silverline concert. Great fun. And we met Max and Britnee there and we all hung out here and there while waiting for silverline to play. They were the best band of course. Steph and Mrs. Lange picked me up, and handed me some goose root beer. Cruff, i lost the bottle somewhere..i was going to add it to my collection.

Saturday we woke up early to drive to lake phalen for the mystery trip. So the youth group piled in the van and off we went. We went passed Burnsville and i called out Leah's name. We went through northfield and I called out Britnee's name. we ended up 2 hours away in Albert Lee. Then we exited off the highway and basically turned to go on the exit that went the opposite way we had just driven. Odd. Actually we ended up at the spam museum which was interesting. They had lots of spamwear and stuff, and exhibits. We watched a super cool spam movie with old ladies in a group that sing about spam. They had free samples so i decided to try it. IT'S DISGUSTING!!! I can't get that awful sensation of it in my mouth away. Horrid. But I have this super cool fake spam tatoo on my arm that looks like a can of spam and i wrote the words holy above it cause the youthgroup's new thing is, Holy SPAM! So apparently we're going to start saying this now. We wate at pizza hut afterward and me and steph shared a medium green pepper chicken pizza, which we finished. But I promise you their pop tasted WEIRD. Mary and Va agreed but steph thought we were paranoid. BUT IT DID! My sierra mist tasted like mandarin oranges you get in a can. And the pizza was iffy. When we finally arrived back at the church, Katie, Mellissa, Mrs. Lange, and I set to work on cleaning the church, because Steph's foot hurt really bad. Slowly, everyone trickled off to their homes, and I was left washing windows and glass doors while music blared on the speakers on the cieling in the different rooms. It was nice.

Later we had Leeann Chin (hmmmm grrrrr that food) and Cerise came and, Steph, Kate, Mellissa, Cerise, and I all watched it. Heh, a couple of the parts Mellissa held on to my feet for she was scared. It wasn't all that scary. Afterwards Cerise and Katie argued about weather the little boy knew Bruce was Dead the whole time or not. I think he knew.

We went back to the Langes and I fell asleep a while later...

But sadly I woke up in the night and thoughts and images of the day at the spam museum rushed through my head. Everytime I thoughts of food or anything for that matter I wanted to throw up, my tum hurt sooo bad. I was hot and a headache formed in my head. And I could almost taste the spam, and I knew I couldn't fall asleep without vomitting. So I woke Katie up, because I honestly couldn't figure out to just go do it or tell her or something. I'm so used to having my mom be there when I called her when I was sick. Sooo yea, I threw up, and it SUCKS.

This morning I was really pissed off at myself and I just wanted to go home to my bed and room and house and computer and I was angry with who I was. The image of myself. Dissapointed at me. And they dropped me off at woodland. I went in the bathroom and braided my hair and then joined worship. I sat by Britnee and I guess she coulkd tell a bit that something was wrong, so she tried cheering me up by giving me those fruity altoids that i love and writing on a piece of paper that she loved me with some eyeliner. But I guess I was mad at me for eating so much and throwing up or something. Being a glutton or whatever. And I wanted it to stop, but i don't know... Being around everyone thoug soon cheered me up cause I love those guys and I hadn't seen them a whole lot that week. Less then usual. And I actually miss my family, cause I love them even though they get on my nerves. Heh, I was talking to this girl named Destiny at tennis, and she was listening to green day and telling me some things. And somehow she started saying how she hates her brothers, and I said that of course people can dislike their family memebers but they love them still. But she said that she hated them and wished they'd go live with her grandma and she'd be the only child. It is so sad.

I'm glad I can forgive.

Manda gave me homemade chocolate chip cookies and i left church early, but i don't mind cause i'm glad to be home. I would hate moving, and I don't want to, no matter how bad this neighborhood gets, and how much sim says we should move to woodbury.

i love my friends.

jon didn't come to church, pish to you.

i really want to go eat something healthy and unprocessed now and take a shower and maybe go for a bike ride. realax and rest. oh cruff, i have my test or whatever for the gay school tomorrow. Oh and I might go to christine's choir concert tonight if i get enough energy and a ride.

hey so now i know how that salami in my fridge is made. kinda gross. and look at that it's hormel brand. did oyu know mcdonals now rents movies??

::quoth anna:: at 12:37 PM

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

I'd like to think that even though i have boring brown hair and eyes and am really quite plain in my apperence, that I stick out in one's mind...

went to woodland tonight......

i like some of greg boyd's views but something inside of me is disturbed by some others. like when he suggested we read the new testament and psalms and proverbs rather than the old testament, because the new is more about believers and stuff.

it's like he doesn't think the roots matter. all of those awesome God stories of Abraham and Joseph and Job are just old stuff that we really don't need to pay much attention to.

and the old testament is where alot of the Jewish stuff comes in...

Yes, I am bothered. And I wonder what mom would think. I wish she was here so she could tell me what to think. It's so hard trying to decide right and wrong on your own.

"let the streets resound with singin'"

::quoth anna:: at 10:07 PM

*yawns* i have to go to tennis soon...oh the joy, i get heaping amounts of heat on my weary skin and get to weep because no good people are there...

sooo anyways.

sunday i went to woodland and then my eye had a brainfreeze and apparently swelled up a lil' which pained me. Hehe Sean...

Him: Do you want my dad to look at it, he's a chiropracter.

It made me smile. EI was the meaning of boring.

Manda came over a while after I got home and then I showed her pictures of me and my family and out pets. We took a bit of a walk and then my family went to Sim's house for father's day. They had a barbecue and then went to play baseball or something, but Michelle took Manda and I to the movie store so we rented Secret Window and Final Cut. Secret Window is GREAT and hilarious. "Her old sticky fingers all over my privacy" Final cut was rather disturbing and odd...

It was really late by the time we finished both and nate drove us and Isaiah home. It was fun for we rolled all of the two windows down and he blasted lacuna coil. :)

Beeeed.

The next day it was raining which made me mad, but ah vell. I still took her to my first day of tennis and it was in the gym, which always sucks cause it's stuffy and you can only play catcher of the court. (aka jail) And the people I reeeeeeally wanted to be there wasn't. So she didn't get to meet them. Hmm at my house we did different thing and then we ended up walking to DQ with Isaiah. When we got home she quickly was picked up, which was sad.

And I went to prayer meeting at the langes.
But after it was over I ended up staying to eat food. And then steph left with cerise so i was stuck there for a while with katie. (but it was fun) And 11 rolled around and they weren't back, and when we called they had gonee out for coffee...O.o Anyways we decided I should sleep over and so i did. But i woke up without katie or steph there. but then mellissa made me one of those awesome smoothies with their smoothie maker and i was happy. I went to tennis again after that.. BORING *yawn*

I came home and cleaned the living room and then went to vbs at the lange's church to..iunno, talk with people heh. And then me and Katie biked to her house and then mine and got out tennis rackets and played tennis. Funny stuff..

We went back to her house and ate spaghetti, but the flaw is when we were having ice cream. Mrp, and then i went upstairs and spoke with nexu (steph's cat) a lil'. And she licked my fingers and layed near me. She's so fuzzy and adorable, but I have to restrain myself from trying to pick her up and cuddle, cause she HATES it. And then HATES you.

Much later I ended up on Katie's floor with her and we were doing our nails. O.o I decided to not paint them red or pink or sparkly silver, so the only other option was bright orange. So now that is how they are, but I think i'll do a black line over them or something.. She has this happy cd a band made, but they have it made as almost one of those books you listen to on the tape and read along. They even have this happy guitar thing at the end of each song so you can turn the page. i liked the song on number 5..

that night i saw the pacifier with steph, cerise, alan, and mellissa. And it's really not worth seeing in my final opinion. Lamo. But the kid was kinda hot, then he bleached his pretty dark hair though.

I came home and went to bed.

And that is how it went.

Arthur quote of the day:

D.W.-Haha mayo head mayo head!

::quoth anna:: at 9:37 AM

Saturday, June 18, 2005

i think i'm just happy...

if you saw the title you would know what i mean.

OOOOOOOOOOK TODAY!!!

Well it was completely boring and I thought I was going to face my doom by starving and sorting pictures all night, but guess what!? Mrs. Hogan called me and invited me irish dancing again for the night!! I quickly agreed, of course, and scurried to get myself in order. To give myself nutrition I ate a strawberry, two teaspoons of peanut butter and a stalk of celery. Oh the bountifulness...

They picked me up in their white truck (except Ben and his dad weren't there, I was kinda glad) and we were off. And I discovered later that the dancing was at the hampton park co-op where i use to volunteer, except it was above it in some dance studio. When we walked in they were all doing a dance I actually knew how it went, and then I abruptly took a seat and unlaced my boots. Then I was able to learn a whooole lot of absolutely grand dances (except for the silly one that ben was actually my partner for, that was hard..) and do a couple i knew. i danced with natalie and bonnie and that was cute. ahhhh natalie and noah are so cute. then there was this circle dance where you had to keep switching parnters and kylie swing and yeaaa something funny happened with that. ask me if you want to know.

it was sooo much fun and i got to eat a gross protien bar that tasted like rubbing alcohol. it made me so hot and tired though. but as the song goes, "i could have danced ALL night." :)

Tomorrow manda might come over and i have to go to EI, so we'll see how that goes..

hehe fish.

::quoth anna:: at 10:49 PM

Friday, June 17, 2005

oh i want to see charlie and the chocolate factory terribly so...

ok so sunday i went to that graduation party, right? right. and it was fun actually. Isaiah's friends are interesting and have nice music taste, and moppy blond heads of hair, which is also interesting. But the fun doesn't stop there. They had ...LEMONADE SLUSHIES!!!!!!!! Which are excellent and I must have another soon for i feel I am addicted.

On Monday I had my physical, and thankfully I didn't have to remove any of my clothes. O.o But I had to have.... [WARNING: YOU MAY NOT WANT TO KNOW SO SKIP TO THE NEXT PARAGRAPH.] ... [DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU!!!] ... [FINE! FIND OUT THEN..] .. a urinal test. it was odd. especially because the little box in hte wall you put it in was out of order [!?] so I had to waltz on over to the lab and give it to the guy. Then he pricked my finger which didn't hurt as much as I remembered. And while this took place he was listening to sunrise sunset from fiddler on the roof. heh. i was tempted to ask him if he was Jewish, but decided against it.

Then my dad made me meet his YOUNG lady friend he met at the compost site and it made me want to spit because she's young. And she has kids and no husband, and her kids bother me. Two troublemaking boys and 1 girl who is my age, but so caught up in guys...ooft. And he made me stay there late, so I couldn't go to bed as early as I wanted. (I'm trying to get better sleep.)

Tuesday I..... Oh! I actually ended up doing something. I went to see madagascar with *lists the names by order sitting in the row* nikki, todd, sean, pilar, satya, peter, andrew, his friend james, and ben. it was better then i expected, ALTHOUGH the penguins weren't as funny as I thought they'd be and THEY GAVE FOSSA'S A BAD NAME!! it made me upset. but oh vell. then i went home with satya, and nikki's mom took us with nikki of course. at her house there was a hot guy who had lived in israel for a bit.

sleep.

wednesday morning i woke up before her so i decided to do hebrew homework, oh the joys. madooa anee osah tsot? cee, anee ohavayt haima shelie... we got food (i oatmeal) and then swung in her hammock and talked. i got a call from britnee's mom asking if she could sleepover that night so she didn't have to pick her up at night. (britnee i mean) so i said yes. then manda called and i guess asked us if we wanted a ride to church early. so we agreed. first we got her really pretty glasses and then waited for emily at counciling. then church. where i did hebrew homework, and took pictures for max with his camera of britnee and against his will, other people. not too much to report with all of that, but it was fun. britnee came back with me and i fed her pizza and cookies. oh phone brb. talking to manda now while i write this. one handed!! she's washing her face.

well it was a very nice time with britnee cause i got to talk to her actually and it made me want to cry and hold her tight. i love her. she went home the next morning and then i got ready for hebrew.

after that we went to olive garden to meet shirley there. good food except i don't relate to her entirely that well. oh vell. i had shrimp fettucine which was splended or the distasteful portion amount. then we all walked at central park...O.o

that night i went to see the sisterhood of the traveling pants with katherine, which was better than i expected. we ate at applebees for supper. yum. ^_^

today i went to perkins with steph and we talked. good and bad. i slept a lil after i got back and then went to the park to sign up for tennis. i saw chris hehe.

tonight i went to hs worship night and it was marvelous. and nikki and pilar washed my feet..:) & i got to wash manda's. nice-ness.

i want to DO SOMETHING in particular tomorrow...*cough*

instead of an arthur quote today i'll do a manda quote:

manda: it has rufflies on the side...*voice trails off* *hiccup* *HUGE burp* omyword!

hey & i made a line:

anna: they stick to you like salt on a martini glass!

oh &...

manda: that kid is on a little morticycle, he is SO my hero.

::quoth anna:: at 9:37 PM

Sunday, June 12, 2005

It's funny because in blogger I have to make up titles but no one ever sees them. I could be making a list of my favorite food or the people I hate but no one would ever see it. Unless I made a new skin, eh which I should, that enables you to see the blog title. And my archives, ho hum.

By the way I forgot to mention last weekend when I was taking a shower at Britnee's I heard the door shaking and vibrating, and I thought to myself, Oh my gosh a demon is trying to come in! And after it stopped I poked my head out the shower curtain and there was satya trying to edge in with this creepy wizard puppet she made trying to freak me out by sticking it in the shower with me. I saw her and she laughed and ran out because I had seen her. Well I didn't trust her so I continued to poke my head out here and there and a few minutes later she tried, quieter this time because she wasn't picking the lock. Except I saw her and she exclaimed about how I had seen her.

...O.o so yea.

Hehe ok now I had a verrrrry nice thing happen. Well I mean...hehe..

On Tuesday me and my dad went to menards to buy paint for the bathroom, and I was tempted to change it from red to some other less bold color. But I risked it and decided to get red. It's darkish. But before that my dad had made me pull branches and sticks into a pile at some lady's yard he was helping out. Well I was getting some supply's from our backseat and I saw it. That green disc with the terrible fake apple smell coming from it. Completely gross. So I knew I had to get rid of it somehow. So guess what I did? I grabbed it and looked around the littered streets of st paul and then i tossed it in to the gutter. It didn't quite make it so then I had to kick it and then heard the clanking of it falling down.

Fun. Anyways I was going to take a shower riight? And so I did. Then I begged and begged Isaiah to go for a bike ride with me. Finally he agreed, and so we went around our neighborhood. We went past Ben and Amanda Hogan's house and they're mom came out and started waving at me. Being signaled back I turned around and stopped to talk. Then they're whole family basically (which is a lot of cute younger siblings) came out to greet me. Now here I shall try to name them all and around what they're age is. I know Ben and Amanda's for sure though. Ben-16 Amanda-14 Bonnie-8-9 Natalie-5-6 Noah-2-3. I was invited in and so we talked and I looked at their painted kitchen until it got dark and Isaiah subtly begged me to leave. They're mom talked about this dancing class that they took wednesday nights and said I should come. And then we exchanged numbers, (I already have theirs memorized) and we left.

Grand.

On Wednesday...i don't remember what happened that afternoon, but I remember my dad took the car to work so I had no ride to youthgroup. Crap, I thought, maybe Kathryn can pick me up? I called her but no answer. I decided I could bike as a last resort, but if Mrs. Hogan called about tonight, I'll go with them. And she did. So I skipped youthgroup to go to their dancing class. It turns out it was irish dancing!!! Ha. Amanda was teaching me the steps but then Ben took over and taught me. After that there were these funny group dances that you had to have partners for. The first one Amanda was my partner, but I didn't understand how to use the steps for hopping about so I just skipped around. During the break between the first and second one Amanda said, "Ben you should be Anna's partner since you can teach the steps better than me." So he agreed and we ended up doing the wooorst dance. It was fun eexcept you had to put your hand on the other persons waist and hold they're hand and swing around. And then you have to grab their hand a bunch. Hehe but it was fun. :D

The third one I did with their dad. O.o

On the way home I told Ben that he whouls check out the poto soundtrack, haha, and their mom offered Amanda to help me paint because she's such a good painter apparently. So I said ok, and then she asked Ben if he wanted to come os he agreed too. And they were coming on Friday.

Thursday I went to hebrew and then I started cleaning my room at 4:30pm. Well I didn't finihs til 10, and then I stayed up til 1 doing laundry. Friday I worked and worked and WORKED from the moment I got up. Which was around 9:15 or 9:30. Til 2:30. I was trying to get the majority of the house cleaned but no one wanted to help. Isaiah was GLUED to the computer chatting on aim with frusterates me to death and playing video games. Dad had dissapeared somewhere, and when he came back started making phone calls. I didn't even have time to eat. So I starved and worked. Finally at 2:10 i got dad to get off the phone and help and Isiah, and it went to much quicker. Grr. But anyways, Ben and Amanda came at 2:30 and then we started painting my bathroom red. It is VERY odd though painting your BATHROOM with people you're getting to know. Especially the part where Ben got bored and decided to clean the sink but ended up pulling up a hair binder covered with hair from the sink drain. Not embarassing at all... Ha. Then he tried getting this toothpaste cap out of the drain but failed. So then he sat and started thinking about how to get it out haha... Obesessed.

But I got to know them a little better and there weren't too many awkward pauses, so that's good. We worked until around 6, and then their mom called and invited me back for dinner, except I had to go to the highschool end of the year bash at 6:45ish. Oh well....

The Bash was uber fun. O.o They had one of those inflated jumpy domes which peter and andrew sorta re-taught me how to do a flip on, and the paddly boat which I went on three times. And seeing Leah again and hanging out on that floaty thing and being pulled by the paddly boat. And I finally got to eat!!! I spent the night at Satya's and made them homemade chocolate chip waffels Saturday morning. Me and manda went back to her house though because satya had tp be somewhere and I took a shower and played her ds. I've almost beaten that stupid sims urbz game!!

Nikki's party was fun too. Kinda stuffy and damp down in the basement though ick. But we watched Van Heilsing, (sp) ate pizza, watched ANDREW get a makeover..ha...and me and pilar got them too. Although makeup sucks and is hard to get off and makes us look fake and blah.

At church there was a standing rock mtg. That will be an interesting missions trip.. I have to write support letters ick. I can't ask people for money...that's weird...

Anyways yea. Phew. Don't wait a week to update your blog. My dad almost drug us to my grandmaa's house today but there is a graduation and i want to go to lpcc...

ciao.

ooh ohh almost forgot..

arthur quote of the day-

molly: like a pig sucking cheese out of a fire hose!!!

oh hey big +! On thursday when I was cleaning my room the seinfield SOUP NAZI episode came on!!!!! Best episode ever!! "No soup for you!" *snap*

::quoth anna:: at 2:52 PM

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

arthur quote of the day:

d.w.- what'd you draw?
arthur- a dog. he's bored. what'd you draw?
d.w.- a stick.
arthur- a stick?
d.w.- a stick..FROM THE PARK YOU PROMISED TO TAKE ME TO TODAY!!

hehe......

Today I spent about 3 hours on the phone. I even got to do a three way, the joy! But guess who it was with? Different quest and us family net people. I turned our computer on today and was going to put a simple away message up but it wouldn't work. It had this funny little yellow triangle with an exclamation point in it over the connection icon. So my dad called us family net and they said the usually reset and what not thing but that didn't work. So he called them back and then made me to talk to the guy. We ended up talking for an HOUR because it wouldn't work. And we left on the ending note: I don't know what to do, call quest. I liked him the best i think out of all the people i talked to. He even decided to ask me how old I was despite the fact that that had absolutely nothing to do with my dead dsl connection or troubleshooting it. instead of calling them though my dad made me invade someone's personal property and help him dig up and chop things down with him because the owner supposably told him what she wished would happen with her yard. oy. then we went to menards and bought paint. i'm going on a bold streak and i'm painting the bathroom "blaze" red and then the trimming in my room black.

back here i started making some pesto but then i mademy dad call quest about the problem. they referred us back to us family, who reffered us back to quest who called us family and then i had a cool little three way with these two guys. oh..the joys. and my dad left for work more than an hour ago and i just got off the phone. so i was talking to all those people and calling them and hearing what they thought was wrong since like 2:30.i had even made hash browns before i started and now they're cold and my dad ate half of them. I think I've said OK, or K, or YEA, waaaaaay too many times today. Because they kept telling me stuff to type in and crap. And every new person i called basically told me to go to the same things restart my computer or restart the modem and then get stuck so refer me to someone else. Finally the last guy just said the modem might be defective so they'll send us a new one and we'll send back the old one. And then he gave me dial up to live off of until we can figure out this problem.

My thoughts? HWAT THE CRAP..CRUFF DID EZRA DO TO THIS COMPUTER!?!?

seriously, it was fine last night, and then he stays up all night online and th enext morning thing break. we have spyware we never use to get and pop ups and now our modem doesn't even work. i can't wait to get my own lap top so they can screw up our computer as much as they want.

i want to paint today but my dad says the humity is too high and it's too hot or something. maybe i'll just go take a cold shower cause now i'm getting a headache from this scorching house. it's...81 in here and then it goes higher when we cook a pizza or something, which my brothers so often do.

we really need an ac.

on a happy note i got to do a 4 WAY with manda, christine, and jon last night for a couple of hours which was nice, cept i couldn't hear half of what jon said cause he's quiet or something, and apparently i'm quiet also. and it's funny because i often wonder if i'm being too loud on the phone, so then i quiet down. and maybe that's my problem.

pomegranelicious!

::quoth anna:: at 4:52 PM

Sunday, June 05, 2005

hehe michelle you leave cute comments. and i don't mind you reading my blog. you are a lovely not-so-random sister in law.

this weekend was interesting.

i thought i would end up doing nothing. up until around 6 on friday when manda called and said she was in the area, so they picked me up and i went to kohls and a mexican restaurant with her and her family. (well mom and dad only) and then we went to coldstone, and i got some very scrumtious lemon sorbet with raspberries in it.

that night she rollerbladed and i biked around her neighborhood. saturday morning she was going to leave me alone in the house because she wanted to rollerblade again, but i ended up going with her and biking and we went to perkins and got muffins, and then rainbow and bought drinks.

at her home she showed laura her apron she got at the thift store that says, "BITCH BITCH BITCH" because laura hates that word. it was..intriguing.

my brother was suppose to pick us up for saturday night service but then he lost his way and gave up and went home. oh great. so we ended up going back to rainbow and buying lee ann chins and then mozzerella sticks and fried from arbys. mm yum.

at britnee's we watched 50 firsts dates and really that's all. *Shrugs*

today was thoroughly exhausting and it's so nice to know that you're dad will decide not to pick you up when he said he was and do you missed first service waiting outside with a heavy backpack causing stress and knots to your neck and shoulders.

i am overwhelmed and mad at ezra for hacking admin privledges and downloading spyware so he had to download another program.

and he's so ready to move from here, but not by himself. pish.

arthur quote of the day:

A-A-R-D-V-A-R-K!

::quoth anna:: at 3:14 PM

Friday, June 03, 2005

Dashboard lyrics for your thoughts-

"Carve your heart out yourself
Hopelessness is your cell
Since you've drawn out these lines
Are you protected from trying times?

Man, it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has
Lord, it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all
Oh look now, there you go with hope again
Oh, you're so sure I'll be leaving in the end

Dig your ditch deep enough
To keep you clear of the sun
You've been burned more than once
You don't think much of trust"

I want to give you whatever you need
What is it you need?
Is it what I need?
I want to give you whatever you need
What is it you need?
Is it within me?

It's hard to explain how I am getting by on so little from you
It's hard to believe that I would let myself get so wrapped into you
There's got to be something that would be worthwhile for me to give to you
We made a connection but you seem to push me far away from you
From you, from you

The harder I push, the further I fall
Well, you don't mind me being headstrong
But you don't want to sing along
Maybe it's trite but I can always, always, always be wrong"

I was listening to the cd leah gave me and those were a couple songs on there and it reminded me of how much i liked them.

So big day.

I finally lost my tooth. And I KNOW what you're thinking. Anna is how old and she lost a tooth??? Yea, I find it odd myself but who can really help or care about it? Not me, that is for sure. hehe "I'm po' and i'm proud!" It happened when I was making this thank you card for this lady my dad works with who has been gifting me with home made jam and shirts and bread. I was trying to eat my seasoned french fries but no matter how much I avoided biting on that tooth I still ended up doing so which caused excruciating (sp?) pain. And this I would not stand for. I paraded myself into the bathroom and leaned over to look at myself very closely and wiggled at my tooth. I pushed the part that was still stuck as hard as I could without passing out from the pain. Blood started oozing out and running off my cheek so as to give me a vampire effect. I really wanted to go down to my brothers and his friend and croak, "Ezzzra, I'm dying!!" But I knew that would distract me from my goal. So after more pain and blood I pushed it another way hard like and psft! I saw my tooth flip it's way over to my tounge. Oh it felt so nice, and my tounge felt so free and my exposed gums felt aired and sensitive, which is a wonderful sensation.

Thankfully I achieved having my fries and eating them too from all of this.

Kathryn picked me up tonight at around 7 and i went to her house and we had BLT's, and smoothies. I love it there. I want a house like hers if I ever grow up and get married. The rooms are bright and cheerful and her kitchen is a wine red with all these quaint perky things about, like aprons hanging and a little table three people can eat at in*the*mid*dle. her bathroom is a dark green and it has candles all about and cute little pictures of her and ron like a black and white one of them on the beach. And their attack is in the process of being turned into a master bedroom with a fireplace.

It's nice. And then we made cards for people. I guess alot of people may not know this about me but I really have this creative edge that I often like to outlet into different things. Crafting cards is one of them.

I really need to work on making a new blog layout soon, for this is getting old and I can't put anything like archives or links to other people's blogs. I wanted to do something from my childhood like arthur or charlie brown or...there was another thing but I forgot..oh yea the cheshire cat. But I'm not quite sure what. *sighs*

I watched Busters postcards or whatever that is today along with arthur. It's really retarded, but he was in seattle so i wanted to see if i reconized any of the places since I have been there. He was just eating soul food and watching a gospel choir and things like that. Arthur was the nice francine episode and then the arthur gleaps things one. Hehe...i love it. I think I really like how they never changed any of the theme song. It wasn't another one of those evil changes programs do to make a febel attept at advancing ratings. Why am I watching a show for 8 year olds? iunnevenknow. but it amuses me none-the-less.

arthur quote of the day i found way too amusing for no reason:
"And he brakes through...They can't stop him!!" (Arthur pretending to catch the ball)

There's this lie floating in my head that says she doesn't care. but she must..right?

It's funny how every night we're home before we all settle in for bed when my dad is home he ALWAYS says, ok let's pray now. This means that everyone he asks has to sit down and pray and take turns praying themselves. You can see the little children in us because we always try to make up dumb excuses to get out of sitting through a long tedious prayer that withholds us from doing other ultimately, unimportant things. But we really can't just say no. We try subtly to, but it never works. I mean, how can you tell this old man who you love that you don't want to pray because you'd rather just not. Heh it never works. I admire his dilligence. He helps us grow. Besides, I've been lerning from the book I'm reading that praying really helps the spiritual battles.

Isaiah's pissed off at me for saying that I don't like stryper or petra or the song reborn. Although he disses my music ALL the time and says his is way beter. He's in a huff and doesn't want to pray until I say that reborn is the best song ever, because I mean, no other band in the world could ever have a song equal or compared to it. And it never ocured to him that people like different things otherwise we would be clones and quite boring.

My question- Is there something happening this weekend? I feel like there's something I'm forgetting but I have nothing whatsoever plan. Meh, maybe I can finally watch that holes movie britnee borrowed me cause it's a good movie apparently, that I have never seen.

::quoth anna:: at 12:26 AM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

hmm i've had a fun last couple of days mostly. but why does something ALWAYS happen to me that makes me feel quite moronic when i'm with my friends.

embarrasing stuff. PSHAW.

yesterday me and manda went to jon's because he was leaving for montana. (and is already gone and there by now!!) it was really fun. except i think i laugh too much or something O.o hmmm. His room suprized me. It was quite organized and well put together. Except I didn't like the mirrors grrr. For example, all the video ames were together on a shelf and his his dvds and just most things.. The ledge seemed a TINY bit cluttered and also one of the dressers. (apparently he has a lot of clothes)
So we hung out there and played funny shooting games and we sliced off people's heads in a mall, hahaha that was a GREAT game, and manda punched someone's face off and we used rib cages and bloody (eh forgot the word he used) heads to throw at people. He is also verrrry good at tony hawk 4...*shifty eyes* but it was basically my first time playing it :P. I have played the other older ones, so yea.

We did go to a "coffee shop" which i like to call caribou. ;) manda bought me a veggie bagel that she thought was disgusting but i needed some vitamins seeing as i hadn't eaten anything that day and it tasted good too. then we truly did walk to the library that he had never been to but lives quite close to and didn't stay long, heh.

then his mom took us to manda's but we were locked out a little while so we layed in her grass and talked about the day.

then her family came home with subway and we shared a foot long steak and cheese w/ onions (sadly nothing else) but it took forever to eat cause i refused to pick a side that she had cut and she wanted me to pick. so finally laura did that bubble gum bubble gum thing and we feasted. that night we had a fire and smores and propel and strawberry chocolate milk and then slept in her tent outside.

this morning i watched her get her back adjusted. interesting O.o but the chiropractor man scared me because he did this thing where he pushed down on her back and then all of a sudden the thing she was laying on collapsed in a way, but it was suppose to do that. the noise was loud and annoying though.

it was sad to be there. being in a hospital again and thinking about mom. i saw the cafeteria and remembered mom talking that one time she got drained how she wanted to go home because the hospital food was gross. and how she said she knew she'd get better so why was she talking of not? how he doctor sad she had three months to live. i didn't belive it. i was so sure she would be there until i got old and she would see my children and help me to be an awesome mom and teach me how to raise them. i knew she'd be there. i just knew it. but then a few weeks later, gone.

back at amanda's i took a shower but the water was freezing basically the whole time and so i had to rinse my hair in ice cold droplets, and it chilled me to the bone.

then we all left for maplewood where her sister had counceling. there was an invisible pig there, and lots of beverage choices. then we sat out on the curb and she read to me from a book called defending your faith in college or something to that effect. then she pointed out to me that i have a birthmark on my arm that looks like a little head of a bunny and she named it professor. hehe...i love her.

church was interesting. i was wiped out so going through the actions were in daze. we cleaned some tables for kid's station and we got kicked out so people played foot ball in a field while satya britnee and i sat under a tree and discussed something that weighs upon britnee's head and heart. todd got pantsed..O.o by max none the less...double O.o

me and pilar almost DIED climbing a tree. she got quite high up and i needed to come so we could have a party. i got halfway up but then freaked out and was loosing energy and did't want to risk breaking a leg, and my shirt was umm short...so i decided not to. besides it wa higher up then it looked. so then i scraped up my arms hugging the tree (holding on for dear life) and sliding down. we still had a bit of a party..and thankfully pilar didn't die either.

hmm peter cut his hair so now it looks like a guy hair cut..O.o odd...

that's life.

have to do ALLLLL my hebrew for tomorrow. pish it all. my memory. i was going to start math this week but then i did stuff preventing me from such.

reading this present darkness..pretty good book.

night.

some lyrics quick..

"If it all ended tonight
You know that I wouldn’t mind
Back to the good old times
Before it won

Sing a long good night
Forfeit any fight
Refuse to rest assured
Comes with no reply
Hold on too tight
Hang on every word"

::quoth anna:: at 9:49 PM