ow, i'm sore for some very unknown reason.
I am now home from a retreat I went to this weekend, which I gained some things from. Lots of ping pong. On Saturday they had this activity block in the day where you had to participate in group games and such things to that likeness, and i was in this little group with interesting people. we play a four way hockey game thing with a tennis ball in a field, (ask if you feel you neeed to know more details of what it was like) and extreme kickball with interesting rules as well. In hockey I think I did a lovely job for our team.. Alot of the team just kinda stood by the goalie and waited for the ball to go that direction. *shrugs* at least i got sweaty. i love playing sports and getting sweaty. i suppose that sounds very odd, but then it means i'm trying my best and my body is happy.
hehehe fun times doing the cha-cha with ruth outside of that highschool on saturday night. volleyball we didn't do so well in, oh well.
last night we had pizza at midnight and the retreat place we stayed in had pingpong tournaments going on... Ok so, there's this area you can hang around in with pop machines and the ping pong tables and couches and stuff, and if you look up, there's a balcony that goes all the way around, so the people upstairs can look over at you in the downstairs. annnd so i had a great idea and i ran around the whole balcony/upstairs-ness about a million times. And my hair flung around and people kept asking me when I was going to stop.
Yes, I had fun. Except they had cruffy food. Majorly. I longed for fresh fruit or vegetables.
*shrugs* not much more to say about that. The memories of it are kept in my head now and I don't have to write them all out.
We had stage combat training on Friday at school. Allyssa was my partner, hehe, she's cute. But i had to leave after we worked on fake hair pulling/smashing you into the wall, training. It made me sad. (to get to the retreat you see)
I have alot of homework to accomplish, and housework, and i really need to make dad take me to the co-op to get lunch food for tomorrow. I fear we're running dry on that sort of stuff...
Now ezra's talking about having beer in his room...O.o and I'm listening to I miss you by incubus. (Snaps to Leah)
oh which reminds me...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY my darling Leah!!!
yep.
oh..i learned this weekend more about the brain which fascinated me. i really wonder if i'll become a videogame designer, or a some sort of brain surgeon or something, because those are the things that fascinate me. Alot of math I realize it requires, but I think that if I put myself on it, I could conquer math. Especially with Jesus' Help. PRAISE Y'SHUA!! I love... i love love love love Him.
Anyways so I watched this clip from this video which showed that there's these things that you have in your head that have desires, and when you want something it attaches to theese things that fulfill it, and the more you want something, the more are made of those, and then you want to have it. Like self pity. If you desire it more and more, your brain makes more of those little cellthings that can be attached to the other cell things.. Ahh i know of no real terms for this stuff. And there's all these cryptic electrical things that stimulate memory with things, and feelings, like songs!
Oh it's too complicated to explain, but that's the jist of it, and I'm so fascinated. And it causes me to examine myself and see how amazing I am..I can see my hands typing..I..can see other people. I can have feelings for these people, I can relate to these creatures or not realate to them..And God loves me..even though I'm just a person with an amazingly advanced mind that has feelings and desires because of cells and stuff in my head.. Life flows through me! But it's not at all life without God. And pain! How amazing is it that you can feel pain! Something pokes you and you think ow, and you
feel it. I feel I have stepped out of that dark closet I've lived in my entire life, and now I'm awed at everything.
Memories are what I have of you..These feelings..of missing you. Yes, I miss you.
Incubus-
I miss youTo see you,
when I wake up is a gift
I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same
as I do is a three-fold utopian dream.
You do something to me
that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line
if I said, I miss you.(?)
I see your picture,
I smell your skin on
the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone
ten days, but already I'm
wastin' away.
I know I'll see you
again, whether far
or soon.
But I need you
to know that I care
and I miss you.
