Life of Buck

Friday, September 29, 2006

jay inspired me

yes we love them.

jay: i love how they have a bead covering their packages, as if one little bead would protect them.

we're going to go to rome together.

food makes my heart flicker.

and fries and malts from annies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one day when i have a boyfriend, we are so going there and sharing malts and fries!! *dance*

::quoth anna:: at 12:09 PM

Sunday, September 24, 2006

officially last night produced WAY too much drama. i wonder if i would have been better off going to rosh kodesh. cruff. another jewish holiday missed because no one is here to enforce my attendence to anything if you get my drift.

i hate failing things. especially at school. i'm not looking forward to all of the homework i should be doing. history-ughudfhigfh. i don't like writing papers.

i probably should send some thank you letters.

and probably study for my permit test that i need to skip school to take.

life is funny, and friends, and how you interact with certain ones one day and then interact enitrely different with them the next. or week.

is it just so hard to ask for some lamb to eat???????
it rained yesterday at the ren fest. i got muddy.

::quoth anna:: at 12:59 PM

Saturday, September 16, 2006

She was a young girl
I was a young man
And I knew they would get her when I let go her hand
And then I let go
The inevitable
So beautiful
And susceptible
So wonderful
And so innocent
And after this neither one of us would benefit
Yeah, I was a dropout
She was a graduate
She said I’ll never be nothing she wasn’t having it
Yeah, I tried to break her down
I tried to reason it
She said I wasn’t nobody to be believing in
Yeah, what a waste of time
What a waste of mind
Your place of mind was a part of the design
Yeah, I used to call her up
She never called back
When she called that said I wasn’t all that
Yeah, I know that times change
And people change, too
I was a fool just to think that I could change you

Everyone’s got stories gone
About a love we once knew
So high in the beginning
Until the world cuts through
And then everything changes
Nothing feels the same
Piece by piece it falls apart until
All that’s left is blame....

Colleen and hip hop class is good stuff.

So I'm feeling a bit better from my cold-sicck-ness.
And perhaps emotionally because I've been home for most of today just kinda enjoying the world around me. Helping dad out with making tomatoe sauce from all the dozens of home grown tomatoes we have. and then i made him a healthy dinner and i feel pleased. i even cleaned the kitchen up after the huge mess and changed the cat litter. getting things done definitely helps your mood level.

i might bus it to church tomorrow. odd.

ok so here's what my post was mainly about.
i'm expressing my distaste in the way girls act. sometimes i feel so ashamed just being a girl and having all those stupid mood swings. i wish i could just be mellow, like all the time or something. i don't even know. But I hate the games we play. Like, overreacting, at stupid crap. Like how I got all pissy at dad on Monday just because he assumed I wasn't helping or something, and I brought a million past thoughts into the situation even though i never even expressed them to him so how was that fair? and like when girls do the whole i don't even know, sublimal phrases thing to get their point across. like oh i like it when guys do blah blah blah, when they're right in front of them. it's like hello! yes we understand your true motives. aahauifshaufhsjakfh saj\sk. i don't want to be needy. i don't want to be moody. i don't want to act like the world revolves around me. can't i just be loving, selfless, and gender-less like Jesus?

plus boys get to wear cooler clothes without worrying about, as nate would put it, SEXUAL IMMORALITY.

::quoth anna:: at 9:05 PM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

i'm officially uncoordinated.
my nose is half stuffed.
i want to close myself up in a box for a while.
i want to keep myself far AWAY from people for a while.
do i care? not sure.
i can't for the life of my figure out what's wrong, with MYSELF.
i walked a mile and a half with sarah from chipotle to church because the bus went right passed us even though we were sitting there waiting for it.
too many things confuse me.
i'm tired.
i'm unstable as a human being.
i just realized I have homework.
and God to attend to.
and cruff a shower.
maybe i am a little over obsessed about food.
yet too skinny to wear some knitted boots from kohls according to my friends...

::quoth anna:: at 10:20 PM